So I had dinner with some friends on their way to Orange beach. They were on their vacation. Then I remembered this. I didnt take a vacation this year. I took some afternoons and such but I forgot to take some time off. I’ll need to get to that soon.
So Im starting to get the house in order for me to be in and out this summer. Mowed the lawn down made sure all laundry was done and cleaned out the fridge of things that I didnt know what they were. So that is complete. Im now sitting on a couch just waiting for monday to come. I asked a friend last night if it easier for people to get together now than our parents time or harder. Here is what I find interesting. Thee are a lot of nice people out there. The law of attraction is a strange thing. While nice attraction is difficult thing to have. I wonder what the things are that attract you to people. Is it a smell, a look, eyes, hands, laugh, personality. What are the things that attract you to other people. I’m attracted to playful people. Make your own definition of that. So on with the night. I’m about to watch this film called recount. Its about the 2000 elections. I’m going to concentrate on that now.
I woke up to music playing in my head. You ever hear music in your head and its so loud its deafening. Well that is happening right now. its the song that goes something like “you got me trip’n stumbling blah blah.” something like that. Aaron had a suggestion of how to get to sleep but I wont use that. ok back to bed.
Its 2:00 a.m. why am I awake?
So here I sit watching blades of glory. I saw it in the theater but here I am. I had such a wild night its good to slow down. You ever get bored with your life. Just feeling like you are in a routine of sorts. I need to shake it up a bit. I have some ideas of how to do that. We’ll see.
So decided not to just turn on the tv and veg out before going to bed and write a little incoherent babble. Ive relieved that I can be amused pretty easily and can also be easily distracted so we’ll see how I do with this one. I always wonder if the 21 me could see the 31 me and wonder what he would say. It was such a fun time in my life or I think. You see I don’t hold on to memories of myself. I dont really know why but I just dont. So where as people wait till there 60 before things start to get fuzzy. I have a hard time remembering things about my self now. There are blips on the screen where I remember certain interaction with people but that is only because I tell that story about them often. Holly I’m sorry but I dont remember your last name. I was 21 in college so I know I knew you. We dated for a while.. Memory is vital thing and I fear that in time mine will be gone. Maybe that is on of my greatest fears forgetting the people around me. Today started out to be a good day then suddenly its taken a turn not to a bad day dont get me wrong and people that I have spent time with today you really didnt have any part in it. It wasnt until this moment right here when i started to talk about memory. There are moments when I have try really hard to remember a thought that i had. There are only certain things that I remember the most. Like a tv show or well I guess any type of entertainment. I remember I remember it all. You remember in strange fiction when the guy says “I think Im in a tragedy” I think I feel like that sometimes. Like Im watching my life as a movie because it seems so surreal. There many parts of my life in which I feel like I just continual live over and over again. One part particular that it always seems to end up the same way. New topic. I remember a day when something I didnt feel was right when I would just quit and move on. Now there are houses, staff, etc. Is that what happens to us. We become this thing that our 21 year self asks what happened to you. I dont really know about that one. let me think about what I mean and get back to you on that. You ever keep clicking get mail hoping something or someone would be there. Ok now I’m getting way off track. If you cant remember your childhood what are you a product of? To many things to work out. I was going to work something out today. Maybe one of the things on this list. Instead Im sitting on my couch writing some more things to work out. Ok so I got a text on my phone and lost my train of thought. So yeah.
I’m not dead just have been going and going and going. We are building up to send off teams so my mind has been on other things. I do though have some projects that im working on that I will be asking some of you for some help. So the lawn is mowed there is a banana nut muffin in my stomach and 30 rock on the tv before I head to the office. Oh this is something new. I had to do a devotional the other day. I’m always really nervous when I do them because many times I kinda babble. I never study as much as I should and I end up reading three chapters and saying “mmm isnt that good” Well this time I shortened the amount of verses and actually studied. I felt pretty good about it. Good times. I saw Lion for lambs. Robert Redford is an actors actor. Very good. When he said “Rome is Burning” he is real good. I wonder if Im a flaming liberal. I think that’s the term. Hmmm. Dont know what my bosses would think of that. I need to think about that. Life has been grand. Spring is in the air. Ok this was just a short note